man sleeping in bed with earphones.

It's Sunday evening, I'm lying in my bed, listening to an ASMR video and once again thinking about my life and the meaning in it. Actually I should sleep, it's late and I have work tomorrow..... The problem is when I'm alone and it's quiet I start to philosophize, what could I have done differently? Is life generally worth living? Why am I actually writing this? Maybe I'm trying to treat myself with it. Why actually therapize? I am a young and healthy person, the world is open to me! But do I really want this world? Do I want to lead this life? Actually not ... In the past I probably would have said life is great, there is a big and exciting world out there to discover.Actually I love to travel. But today I think why should I put myself through this shitshow? Life is expensive, a lot of work and in the end you die anyway, some sooner and some later. What's the point? Why do almost 8 billion people do this to themselves every day?Just because of the meaning of life, which from a natural point of view is to rep